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 With coming out there comes a ton of administration you gotta deal with. Sadly this isn't a process that gets done fast. Changing Name by law Changing your name by law as a trans is super easy here. You receive like a document from the hospital where you are getting your transitioning. With this document you go to your city hall and request a legal name change. This will cost you 12.50 EUR. The only disadvantage is the waiting time for it to actually change. Mine took almost 6 months to actually go through. But the moment you finally get that note that your name has been legally changed is such a blessing. Its like you are finally getting born and you get to be you!! Changing Gender by law  This is a trickier one. To actually change this u need a note that declares you are sane and are identifying as the opposite gender. This then goes to "The king" he needs to approve this. To start this process you take the paper that you received to the city you were born in. There yo...

 without support during your process its a very hard journey to go through and most people would give up.  Support When I first came out I had to say I never expected to lose over 50% of the friends I had. I never felt that lonely before. At that moment the only friends I had knew a bit from before.  But I met so many people on twitch and they became my best friends tbh. I've never had this much support from people (Fam not include) as from them. So here is a little "SHOUTOUT" Gabbie Gabbie was one of the first people on twitch where I had a good feeling about. There is something special about her way of interacting with people that make u feel special. She helped me through so much hard moments. If there is one thing I can say about Gabbie is that she is a ray of sunshine. Her positivity is so contagious that she can turn a sad day in a better day. For those people that do not know Gabbie here is a small summary. Gabbie is a Swedish streamer with a golden heart. She che...

 Prologue If you finally get an OK, you can finally start you hormones. Trust me this isn't all fun. Taking hormones changes a lot and not all for the better.  Hormones aren't supposed to be taken without prescription of the doctor or without supervision. Hormones As a transgender mtf you gotta take 2 types of hormones. Female Hormones and Anti-Male hormones. Depending on the age you are, your allergies or prev illnesses you can get different kind of pills. In my case I received Progynova and Androcur  Progynova Positive side-effects Development Breasts Development female shapes Softer skin Feeling more happy Negative Side-effects  Cancer Heart diseases Strokes Memory loss Rollercoaster of emotions   Androcur Positive side-effects Stopping baldness Reduces Libido Prevents genital to get hard  Negative Side-effects  Fever Vomit Itching across entire body Liver Intoxication Chest aches Liver Swollen Calves Shortness of breath Blood clots Liver tumor...

Prologue People think or used to think that being trans meant you had a mental illness, but let me say and show you that people who are transgender are actually pretty sane. The Stuff we go through to get  to were we want to get. Our road to happiness isn't always open and clear. How To Start Your Transition? To be able to actually start your transition you got to follow a lot of steps. First of all here in Belgium you got to make an appointment with the 'TransCentrum' - A hospital specialized in transsexuality-. You got to explain who you are and what you want. If they finally reply your mail you get an appointment almost 6 months later you get an appointment. During these 6 months you got to think if you really want it or not. When you actually go to the appointment you'll meet an psychiatrist specialized in transsexuality. The psychiatrist you get here is based on the age you are.  He/she does a examination through your mind to make sure you truly want it or not. The...

 Prologue My entire life I felt something was wrong. I didn't fit in. Not with the boy nor with the girls. Here I was a child without a place. Friends didn't come easy, since I was a target for most bullies. Cuz to be honest which bully would bully a child that just didn't fit in? The older I gotten the harder it became. The bullying became harder and more painful. Even got threatened to death by Nick. By this time I already knew I was different. I knew I wasn't a boy/dude/man I did research and discovered I was TRANS.  Years passed and I've tried everything to hide the real me. I've shaven myself almost bold, hang out with the "GANGSTA" gang of the school. But nothing worked. I became sad and depressed.  Coming Out Since faking my identity became harder and harder I accidentally made some blunders. I was in college where I became friends with an amazing girl Felice. We started taking about clothing more specific female clothing. It felt so good, but i...

  Verdwaald Door de straten verdwaald Hopende een uitweg te vinden Maar even het leek hopeloos Maar toen, plots was er licht Ik kwam je tegen en werd verlegen, liefde ontstond Zo diep en ongegrond! Nu wil ik je hier voor meer dan een kwartier mijn leven wil ik delen Je zult je nooit nog vervelen

  Vous Vous êtes comme la lune pour moi belle dans la nuit et aveuglante dans la journée personne ne sait ce que je ressens pour toi Vous voulez dire que tout pour moi Sans toi, je ne voudrais pas vivre pour vous, je passerais par la feu Vous avez une place dan mon coeur jusqu'a la mort nous sépare

  Grateful Life is an epic battle where you fight for honor. A battle to create history, but not an easy one. No one is there to help you. All alone with your thoughts in emptiness with no light at the end of the tunnel. Your life could be successful, but with one step you could go 2 back or even worse. Life is a fragile thing which you don’t play. BE GRATEFUL because you won’t get another chance.

  Life is a Gamble Life is nothing but a gamble. You could win Or you could lose But without a risk Life isn’t worth So I gambled lost a lot but an won a bit But what I won is worth more Then what I lost I won an amazing friend A friend so special That I can’t live without A girl so amazing That she stops my world So if I ever lose her I would die Cause she’s my life My beating heart My everything

  Life As life continues I know I have to go on leave the world I know Behind No one knows what life brings Is it worth fighting for or should I let it rest What would someone else do would they try or not? boms fall everywhere people cry all over the world the world we know is fucked up and our future is black Is it worth to fight Should I let it rest My time will come So I have to know

  Forgive me Every night As I walk in the streets I think of the times we has and not the once we will have Tears float heart's broken blood everywhere but still I can't forget how we met andd what I thought of you before I loved you

  Time As time goes by I realize that the time we have is not what it looks The time we had or have will always be on my mind cause that time was too special for me If you ever leave I'll miss you But will never forget you So when you're far away you're also with me and that will stay Till I die

  YOU When I'm here and you're there I always wonder "how are you?" No one knows how I feel  Cause baby you're the one As our time ticks I know that you're the one for me you know I knew much about the world but of you I didn't know a thing Then we started to talk and now I can't live without you Because you're too special A true friend